Opinion Versus..?

I love reading Perez but as i was going through today, i linked to some different blogs & websites. It's always been a pet peeve of mine when people fight on the internet. Whether it be through your own social networking, or if you go to the lowest of lows & fight people you don't know at all on forums or whatever it is. It's just the stupidest thing i've ever seen. Who has the time, or the aggression or the nerve to try & pick fights on the internet left & right? These people must crave massive attention or something. Plus they're talking about people and things they personally know absolutely nothing about. They just make petty comments or are blatantly rude simply to cause a reaction from the other posters. It's SO DUMB. I mean it's not even entertainment for me to read the arguments, i used to think they were hilarious, but now it's just obnoxious and makes me feel like i'm losing brain cells with every post. But now that's i've dwelt on the subject a little longer today, it's almost difficult to read Perez!! I think celeb news is fairly interesting, just because it's usually kind of outrageous, but i don't read that shit because i care at all about people i don't even know. Yes these people are in magazines and movies and music, but GUESS WHAT, if it wasn't them, it would be someone else. All of these people are someone somebody else knows. Somebody's child, someone's best friend, someone's classmate, colleague, the person in line in front of you at the store. I mean, they're just ANYONE. I guess this is somewhat hypocritical, considering my previous post of "celebrity's" i love. But, my reasoning is this, i'm not OBSESSED with any of them. I don't follow their every move, unless of course i'm following tour dates for a band i love. But comedians, what do they do? They use their real talent of being able to naturally put a smile on peoples faces with ease. Not all comedians are funny, but the ones that are, that's talent. But guess what, they're still just another funny friend at a party. They got awesome connections & they're so lucky they get to tell jokes for a living, but it's the luck of the draw. It's the passion and the work they put forth. Musicians, musicians change lives. At least in my opinion. Music is spiritual and it honestly i don't know what i would do without it. That's why i love certain musicians, they've made music that's tapped into my heart and my soul and my memory and attached itself to my real life emotions and adventures and people. It BECOMES a part of you. And for that i admire amazing musicians. But obsess? No, i don't care what they do with their private lives, i don't care who they're talking to, i don't care what they wore or the fact that they go to the grocery store "JUST LIKE US!". Is that a joke? Of course they're just like us, they're human beings. They are "Just us". They're everybody, they're anybody, they're nobody. The elite status of a celebrity doesn't make them super human, it makes them a public profile with more money than most and a ridiculously busy schedule. It's work. That's their job. That is what they do. Doctors also work hard, they save lives daily, they worked their asses off in years of school studying and memorizing and putting in countless hours to help people who can't help themselves. Do you follow doctors around with cameras and tell everyone else how much they're "JUST LIKE US!"? No, no one does. Except MJ's doctor who they're trying to claim is a murderer. Why does everything have to be a scandal? Why are people so ridiculously entertained by other peoples drama? Do you ever wonder how much it would suck to be involved in some of these situations? All people do is give their unimportant commentary about someone they don't know & probably won't ever & they think they're word is like the bible or something. It's not! You're gossiping, you're gossiping like you would in high school. You're spreading rumors about someone you heard something about one time & it sounded interesting to you so you thought you'd share it with everybody else because you have nothing of importance to say about yourself and your own life. It's crazy to me that behavior like this is not only completely acceptable but that it's the social norm to do so. The media is an important part of life today & is so helpful on so many levels. Getting the news to the people all over the world, sharing knowledge & information that people have the right to know. But at the same time, a good 50% AT LEAST of what's on television is just complete crap. Cameras following the lives of the privileged as they continue to be privileged and get paid to do so while contributing nothing to society at all except for warped self images, feelings of inadequacy and a demented sense of reality. Hollywood is an absolute joke. The concept of celebrity is an absolute joke. Do you think these people like having people come up to them and scream and cry and stutter & pee their pants because they can't believe "IT'S YOU!!". How old would that get? You wouldn't be able to meet people anywhere who could just say hi like you're any other stranger willing to strike up a conversation except for famewhores & people who just really don't care and see them as another regular person (which they ARE). You would be living in a world of constant greedy backstabbers. It makes the things in life that are already difficult, even more so. Finding a boyfriend/girlfriend, finding a friend, period, trying to go anywhere in private or do a simply daily task like going to get food or take a walk without being followed by cameras or seeing a crowd of people waiting for you. It's just really disgusting to me. I don't understand how so many millions of people in the world can follow along with it just because that's what they're supposed to do. How do you now see any sense of an invasion, or feel like a fucking creep. You don't facebook stalk people you know from school or admire for one reason or another & then talk about them with your friends like you're ACTUALLY friends & tell everyone about what he or she is doing. No, because that's not normal and everyone would think you were a psychopath. So i don't know. It's just really been bothering me a lot lately. That not only people & society do this PERIOD, but that people actually waste their time arguing for or against people they actually know nothing about in real life & people that don't know them & really don't care at all what they have to say. Or shouldn't care at all. I'm sure there are a lot of celebrities who love fame, but there are also actors who really just love to act & musicians who love the music. & comedians who live for the comedy. They got into these trades because they can make a career out of doing what they love to do, they didn't ask for the criticism or fan base of the entire world. They make movies & music & jokes to entertain. Their lives are not the show. I don't see how so many people fail to see the distinction. 


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Fa Sheezy Fa Sho

Obsessed with this song right now: 

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Always

"I do believe, that there is no more tricks up my sleeve." Today is good, lately is good. I was reading through my older posts & i actually found them pretty insightful. At least to me, which is why i write this. But i give myself a pat on the back for my creative writing. Anyways, in one of my earliest posts i said something about how i want, no NEED to go to Africa for some sort of humanitarian project. Weeeeeellll....
Drum Roll Please....


I'M GOING TO ECUADOR!!! I leave July 29th & i'll be gone until October 12th. I am so excited for this opportunity. I got my official application acceptance letter last week. Letting me know when all my payments need to be made & that my travel plans are in the works. I honestly cannot believe this is real yet. I'm going to be working in an orphanage run by the Catholic Nuns in Ecuador for that 2 1/2 months. Basically you just go & give the children the company and lessons that they wouldn't get otherwise since they're either orphans by tragedy or abandonment (which is of course still a tragedy but you know what i mean). Just loving them & trying to teach them the basics that they need to grow up and be productive and able-minded. It's going to be such a humbling experience. Honestly life changing and i cannot wait to allow it to change mine. I'm so ready for a completely new situation. It's what i've been craving for months on end and i know had i know branched away from the people i once clung too & really been on my own i would have never done it. You can't grow when you have a parasite sucking the life from you every second of the day. That's what you were. A parasite to my life & my well being. But that's not the point. The point is Ecuador and the lives that are going to change mine everyday. I'm worried about the cultural differences and the rules there, just worried i mess up & insult someone on accident or somehow get myself into a dangerous situation. But i know as long as i follow the OSSO rules i will be fine. They've had hundreds of volunteers in & out of the country in the last twenty years. I'll just be another. Another thing i'm excited for is that my parents will be flying out the 8th of October when i finish my term & we get to go on a 4 day 3 night trip through the Amazon rain forest. It will be completely mind-blowing. I honestly have zero expectations for this entire trip because i know i cannot even fathom the extent of how beautiful, different, scary, amazing, and moving it will all be. I'm so lucky to be able to do this i really can't even begin to express it. 


Also, i haven't written about this, but when i fly back into the states my adorable tiny-with-a-huge-belly sister will have had her baby Avery Jade Ham the month before. So i think our plans are to fly directly into California so i can see baby Avery for the first time. (: How amazing. I'm so proud of my sister. She's honestly led such a picture perfect life and has always been completely herself & stood for her values & has so much drive and passion. It's so great to see. She's so happy & she deserves it more than anyone i know, besides my parents, who basically deserve the world. But i'm excited to meet Avery & i'm excited to meet all the other children in Ecuador that i'll come to love and miss once i leave. 


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